I’m sharing something very personal, i’m crying by sharing this…I’m also sharing video from instagram about this post, sorry for my voice still stick…You also listen the song by reading it i share it the bottom..

Lets start by why I’m single. I always thought that I will marry a guy with whom I will lose my virginity. Well, we stayed together 3 years and we got engaged. One day his phone was beeping all day while he was asleep. I checked and found out that he was dating another woman for about 6 months, while he was planning a wedding with me. She didn’t know about my existence. I didn’t contact her, because it was not her fault, she was innocent in this situation.

I never checked his phone before because I felt like I could trust him fully and I’m not someone who is sick by checking my boyfriends phone. I think we all need privacy, as I didn’t want him to check my phone, well he could have if he wanted to, I don’t care, but I think it shows that you don’t trust the person who means the world to you.

So after all this mess I broke up with him. He called the woman in front of me and told her all the truth. He turned on the microphone so I could hear what she is saying. She was crying and I felt pain for her. Well, I was hurt too, and I couldn’t forgive him after that,  i gave him back the ring and i told all the truth to his parents, because someone had to explain why we not getting married at the end.

He mother told him how can you be such a fucker?

His parents was asking me to forgive him and all, because we were very close, they use to come to my house and have dinner with my parents and this is so messed up now. I gave him back the ring, which he putted back in to my mail box, well i took in putted in to my jewellery box, i’m not going to put to rubbish the ring of3000euros.

I still see him sometimes on the street we cross each other, because we live in same area, we say hi to each other, but this is it, i dont know if he dating or what he is doing, i was so hurt, that i barely care.

After this experience i can never trust anyone and it makes my life very difficult and for another person who i’m dating as well, because my past, is not his fault, so i can never have normal relationship after all this.

Second boyfriend was my best friend we decided to give it a try, as we were both single, but after few kissing i almost puke, i just can’t look at him as a boyfriend, even if he is so wonderful, beautiful inside and outside, but i just can’t, so we still best friends, all is fine.

Voila. 

Listen the Song By reading, so it will look more dramatic😂❤️

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I'm here to post my thoughts and positive pictures❤️

279 réponses sur « How The Fucker Fucked up my Life »

  1. WOW – thank you so much for sharing this. You are showing your strength by just writing the whole thing down in this space. We can’t imagine the hurt you are feeling – and you may not want to hear this – BUT – YOU SHOULD FORGIVE HIM so you can move on with your life without the excessive bitterness. Forgiving isn’t an action for him – it’s for YOU! Everything happens for a reason and you are meant to be with someone else. Love life for today and forget about the past! https://marriedstrong.com/about-joya-and-michael/

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      1. Omg I totally understand how you feel how on my life story it is the girl who cheated the first time I forgive her because I thought she was solo beautiful I was privileged to be with her WHAT A MISTAKE!! I catch her again and again with the same man her first love she say to me she never forget him so I finish with her my family was supporting however ever since then I stay celibate. I have to say that I love your photo

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  2. Ilona, I am sorry I did not get the time to read your post earlier. So, I asked you what happened on Instagram. How could a woman with all smiles cry? I was worried. But this seems clear to me. I cannot really tell you that I understand how painful this is for you but I can fathom it. And only comforting words I can tell you are, time is the best healer of all wounds. Do not let these bad moments/people scar you. They are not worth it. However, what is most important from your story for me is that I see a strong, independent woman who can take a stand for what she believes in. I see a kind woman who knows how to forgive people who are involved in a story which hurt her. I see a brave, positive woman who knows how to get up again and again after falling. Just know, that this amazing woman that you are, your worth cannot be measured in wealth or assets. Shake yourself up, dance to your favourite song and feel how free, strong, sexy and sassy you are. ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. Thank you so much for your comment. Yes i wasn’t in the mood to continue instagram, it take me too much time to handle both blog and instagram. Life is life, we have to move on soon or later anyway so i don’t really have a choice. Hopefully i can share my feelings here with so many amazing people and it help me a lot to feel better, to progress everyday, even if there is some dark one this is inevitable. but now its time for positivity so lets smile to life 🙂 Thank you for your support 🙂

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      1. 👍🙏😊 if u feel better that way,, then you did right thing,,, don’t see criticism in my comments, I am just sharing my opinion,, difference in opinion is good as we all are different ,,, 😊

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    1. Just read it. I have chosen to be single because of such. The best I can say is thank goodness you found out. The matter of how must take a backseat. The issue is the fact that he allowed you fall in love, with a lie, he knew he was. The pain of such betrayal, with intent is a heartbreaker. There is still love out there. No way he can make you give up. Hell No. Be life, your life. Sir Josh!

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      1. But i still dont know, how i have been iso blind for such a long time, i think, that i’m not the only one who had this kind of experience, maybe some people have been thru something similar, cheating happens everyday, on both side women’s does cheating too, we had a women at work which didnt miss a chance to flirt or to give her phone number and she was married and i think she is still married 🙂

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  3. It is terrible that you had to experience this! And it is amazing that you still have your wonderful smile and positive spirit! And you help others to smile, too! Hang in there, Ilona!
    You will be fine…and you will find happiness, too! God bless!

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  4. Truth hurts more when it breaks long time trust.. It’s hard to accept the fact that he one we loved for years was fake all along..

    I feel that was the past and u got an experience… Hope the future is better…

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    1. Thank you for reading and you are so wise for you age, sending a hug back, lol, thank YOU😁is not even for a guy, is about the fact😁

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  5. It’s a good thing you found out before your marriage. Imagine if you found out later. You’ve been spared. It could have turned out much worse. I hope that realisation can inspire you to stay positive. If there were more dedicated and idealistic people in the world like you, it would be a much better place. Alas, we’ll have to avoid a lot of toxic folks and save ourselves from people who do not consider our well-being when they follow their own base impulses.

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    1. Imagine if i would find out by during pregnancy, would be so so so bad feeling, i feel so lucky, that i find out all of it on time, i believe, that there is somewhere someone who is waiting for be with a clean heart and brave brain❤️

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  6. I think most of us have been in a similar situation at some point. It feels so much better when you can forgive him for acting like so many humans do. There is some lovely man waiting for you. 🌺

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  7. Wow, that’s not easy to share something like that, I know, but thank you for doing it. Remind yourself that he lost you, not the other way around.
    I’m sorry you had to go through that. 💔

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      1. Oh no don’t say that. Life is always beautiful as long you’re breathing. We just happen to always meet the life-sucking-idiot type of people. 🤷🏽‍♀️ As you grow and learn you become more aware of these people so you don’t have to get involve with them.

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  8. I am so sorry … you and any other girl do not deserve that. And the girl who he did that with . I hope eventually you will be able to trust again . Your such a nice person and you deserve to find happiness . There’s a special guy out there waiting for you give it time he find you. Hugs💕

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  9. non devi essere triste e depressa solo perché una storia finisce, tu sei giovane, bella ed hai la vita davanti a te, potrebbero esserci altre storie e anche queste potrebbero finire, ma se hai la costanza di saper attendere la persona giusta, vedrai che quanto prima arriva ed allora non avrai più tempo e voglia per gli altri e quello che provi adesso non lo ricorderai nemmeno più, auguri e buona vita.

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  10. We all have seen a variety of mourners.

    The pain may initially be very real and unbearable. But even after the worst breakup, we sleep at night, don’t we?

    Trust me; it’s okay. We don’t always end up with our soulmates.

    I understand the pain, but I do not understand the fact we cannot get away with it.

    Our inability to move on only stems from us not wanting to move on in the first place.

    I think one of the biggest reasons why people find it difficult to move on is they keep thinking about the sad parts.

    If we could only try to focus on those moments that made us smile and be grateful we experienced that bliss, even if it was short-lived, it would become a lot easier.

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    1. Oho, good evening, been a while since we talked, sorry i was away, thank you for your meaningful and such beautiful comment, i believe, that the life goes on and we never know who we will meet tomorrow or next week, soulmate needed, not always happening :)🤗overthinking may take over sometimes, but it is difficult to control it sometimes❤️

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    1. Good evening, loving the smile on your pictures, looks so natural and real, well it is life, we can’t plan anything i guess, thank you for reading, your comments means really a lot to me, lately i didnt had time to stay on Word Press, but it feels good to answer to the comments finally, i hope you are having a wonderful evening, hugs🤗❤️

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  11. I am sorry to know about this, ilona madam. You share so much positive stuff despite having such a burden on heart. You and the other girl deserved better person. You are a very mature person because you still say hi to him, and I guess like people say, we have to forgive people so that we can move on ourselves, but his deed shouldn’t be forgotten.
    I wish you a better future ahead. Remember that it wasn’t your fault, so don’t blame yourself. It will take time but I am sure that you will be healed and if things look too difficult, you can consult with a qualified counselor if you are struggling with the current relationship.
    Thank you for inspiring others and blogging!

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  12. It takes such strength and courage to come forward to tell this story. It also speaks to the amazing woman you are to have the presence of mind to know the other woman was innocent and being lied to the same as you. Stay strong dear you deserve better than him. Thank You for sharing your story

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  13. Wow sorry to hear that Ilona i might be wrong not all men are like that i’m pretty sure that you will meet the right man, and with that experience you will be a stronger women which will help you through life.. Hope it goes really good for you.

    Lifeat60

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  14. Coucou toi, mon Ami, Amie ILONA très joli couple

    Je viens déposer
    Le soleil dans ton coeur
    Ma douceur dans ton âme
    Un ciel étoilé dans ton regard

    Lorsque ton coeur
    Parlera à mon coeur
    Nos âmes brûleront ,d’une douce chaleur

    Lorsque je viens te rendre visite
    Il me semble que je prends ta main
    Afin d’être unis d’une grande amitié Céleste
    Agréable journée ou soirée belle semaine
    Gros bisous Bernard

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  15. Thanks for sharing your story. I am very sorry for all of the grief and heartbreak that you have had to endure. Please, let me say this. You are a beautiful woman, and a woman that any serious man would want to have permanently in his life. I would say that you should be particular in accepting invitations for dates; they lead to more than what most women would want to follow. Take your time; the right man will come along.

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